day by bay basis

2006-01-28T16:34:00.000+08:00

my blog makes it seems like i'm gonna commit sucide.
thanks to charmainekoh.
i told her i wont blog tell i get a new nice blogskin.
she has only fulfilled one part, and that is giving me a new blogskin.
the "nice" part is yet to be done.

hope you see this char. i'm waiting to see a change in my blogskin.
not very nice to start chinese new year with suicidal thoughts.
gross.

2005-06-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

ok..i saw it.
my last post. dated 18th May 2005.
ahh...tat's quite long. :)

char's complaining...
she must have been linking my blog each day only to be utterly disappointed. haha...dun be sad gal...here's one post that should satisfy you for now.
i know i've sadi this many times...but ya..i'll repeat.
this blogskin is so so ugly....so outdated...so boring.
so, i want a new blogskin.
but i dunno how to you know...do such things.
it was done by a kind soul namely, harry.
so dun bother offering to teach me how to doll up my blog...
just offer to change it all for me, one whole complete package.
and yes, thank you. i will continue dreaming...

so how's life? it's like that lorr...
tons of work...filled with a little excitement caused by some teachers...
namely...a monkey, a chicken cum bulldog (mutated genes laa..) and a plastic dancing doll, a real ugly one. yup... they sure add spices to my life...never tasted before ones.
the plastic dancing doll is the worst...
for your info, plastic caused she puts SO much make-up that she looks kinda fake...unreal. and disgusting. today, she shouted at the us -dijingnaphplusme- for always 'hanging' around the water cooler there. so crazy...we dun hang there for goodness sake, we REFILL our water bottles. and as she was scolding, i was happily drinking my water...totally unconcerned. HA.

oh well...guide activities was supposed to stop..it WAS really...
but then came up a tempting G-O-H offer that was too hard to resist...
so just ONE more day...i promise its the end...ha.
as for coming back as a YA( young adult) i dun think i will be.
i sort of talk about it during dinner and my mum was like..."no hor...no more guides."
she says it takes up soo much time.
but actually it will be the same for any cca too..
cos i love it so much more than studies...so nothing you can do.
anyway...i will see bout it.
char and eve seems rather interested...the super committed guides. :)

the handsome monkey who's have this humongous crush on me still continues to write love letters on my worksheets. they tend to be rather short and sweet. but he still does not want to meet me yet..i guess he's just not ready to..so all is well. haha.

funfair will be fun. dun give a damn bout the plastic doll. let loose..have fun! who cares bout wat target...the air-cons in our classroom must be rusting already...they need money to REPAIR them i guess. :p it's my last year in KCP hopefully...so no one's gonna tell me wat to do and wat not to do. i think i'm old enough to know. but maybe i lack in depth..so i shall seek help from my Father above. the one i can count on. always.

motivation=driving force. i will be needing tons. hope there's enough to spare.
chinese os oral is coming. 6/6/2005. i sure hope i wun make a fool out of myself.
these teachers are unaware of my background. so i pray that God may send them a dream of me so that they will have a rough idea what to expect when i start to speak CHINESE.
oo...it wun be so bad...it will just be that bad.

haha...so today's 30th june 2005. next post? 30th july 2005. tata!

2005-05-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

i am an A* student.
i am an A* student.
i am an A* student.

bullshit.

i love myself...to bits.
sorry to lie.

i am back!..heh!

2005-04-18T17:17:00.000+08:00

haha...more than a month since i last blog.
well, apparently i doubt anyone's gonna read this cos thet probably gave up checking to see if esther blogged.
anyway, life is now in the fast lane...near speeding but perhaps not really there yet.
once the mid years are over den we shall all be blasting off at full speed.
well, at least most ppl will, maybe i will just be at second gear.

counting down to the mid years and not forgetting chinese Os. i feel too relaxed, i have not been really studying like shit ya...and it starts to scare me alot, freaking me out. i look at my class ppl, then i compare them to me, and ahh...i see THAT big difference. mugging at every available time, but look at me, slacking! ahh...bad bad.

approximately, i have at least 11 days to the chinese mid year's...as for the actual Os...i dun want to think about it...at least for now. and looking at my timetable, i realise..i "started" on both maths..well abit only la...tuition wat. somehow i never pass my a maths before. haiz. i am getting sick of failures...but well, i haven done anything really right and successful yet...i am getting emotionless. english is going down down and down. char, wipe off that grin. hah! anyway...haven started on geog,ss, bio and physics. ya...physics. he hasn't been giving me a good time since i refuse to drop physics given my amazing grades. and he totally freak me out today. pls throw me out of ur class and may i never exist in your mind again. thankyou. i would not want to affect ur 100% passes and cos you to suffer in agony over the 99.9% passes. driving teachers towards depression and insanity has never been my forte.
i think dropping physics might have been a good idea...that way i will have one less big subject to care about. but too late. i promise i can do well, at least a pass whatsoever, and i can do it. i must. but it's hard. and shld i fail my mid year...beware, a safe distance from him is most advised.

took my 5-item test in fri. went ahead despite a no-no from doctor. well, i never really listen to doctors. did ok. but had to miss today's 2.4km run due to bad cough and had a medical check-up on that precious middle finger who is not doing so fine. guess wat? i receive yet another medical exemption from all ball games for yet another three months. this is madness. 6 months in total of not playing ball games. but ya, i have been playing so...heh. this mc shall just be added to the collection in my file. i will have to run the 2.4km with the sec 1s. boy...aren't they gonna laugh at me when i am so much slower than them. hah. whatever, i have no more face to lose.

it's hard to keep spirits high this few days. nevertheless, keeping a sad moody face does not help the day to be much better. so despite our troubles, the amount of work, stress, pressures and whatsoever, let's all smile. :) for life's worth living, it comes only once, and so does time. a smile can make a whole lot of difference. And even if no one is smiling back, remember, God in heaven is smiling at you, for that small effort you put in to make a terrible day seem better.
i am trying too, to smile. :) :) :)

With God, all things are possible. (matthew 19:26)
I can do all things, with God who strengthens me. (phili 4:13)
ineverything you do put God first. pray unceasing. rejoice always.
remember, there is no road too hard when we walk by His side.

let's walk with God, you and me, today, and forevermore.

2005-03-13T11:12:00.000+08:00

i just cleared my room.

its darn clean now.

and i just realised the holidays and the amount of homework to be completed dosen't really match.

boo! i want an extention./

mum's back and yup, there's nothing for me other than a white jacket and foodies. and of cos some added singing.

//i want my BAG! and perhaps a new sneaker and jacket.//

GREEDY!

2005-02-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

i am an irregular blogger...bear with me.
perhaps if someone gets me a nice new blogskin, i might blog more often. hint hint..hor char?
haha.
these few days were a mad rush. homework. tests. and not forgetting physics.
yup, physics.
sometimes i wondered, did i make a wrong choice to carry on.
perhaps i really cannot make it. but den maybe i could.
anyway, i already signed up for the paper.
no more looking back.
jus go ALL THE WAY.
den i will know where i stand.

went to coffeebean with the ccb gang.
waited for so darn long to get a seat. hilarious.
we shifted from seat to seat like 3 times!!
den jojo and zechow came and join us.
went to eat with jojo at pasta mania.
had a good talk. hah!
so sick of things at times.
but, WHAT TO DO?!

2005-02-05T13:04:00.000+08:00

ok..i have learned, realised...
its just 100% attitude.
cos u see, the journey in life will never be smooth sailing.
it will never be perfect.
it will never be the way we want it to be.
like in our dreams.
cos dreams are there to keep our hopes and spirits alive.
to help us have a drive, a motivation, a zest to achieve it.
and make it come true one fine day.

so wat's with the 100% attitude thingy?
well, we can choose our moods each day.
we can control them.
cos the situations we are in, always seem to be the worst.
but they are never. ever.
and sometimes, after talking to ppl in situations worst than urs,
u look at their response, they take it so well, in their stride.
they nv harp on the past.
they look forward to start each day afresh. and end it with the right note.
they choose their way of living life.
they choose their ATTITUDE.

and u know wat?
the good news is...

SO CAN WE!

YAY!

2005-02-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

today's the worst day..
i couldn't finish both tests...
and i am sooo FRUSTRATED with maths.
and add on physics..

I HATE IT!

argh.

2005-01-31T17:36:00.000+08:00

pissed...
yup..that was how i was feeling for the day.
maths totally pisses me off..
or shld i just be specific and say E maths...
or shld i be even more specific and say the teacher...
i guess i shld just get to the point and say mess cheok.
lame old me...going one big round just to say it...

shall not elaborate on that anymore...since i manage to get out of that mood le.
after the guides meeting, which char and i actually plan to pon tang... but eve and lijin went in the end...tot eve said they not going but in the end the gang went..so me and char rushed down to join them...and boy, it was borring.
luckily we all not involved in the dance...alsa ask us if we wanted to, and we were frank and said no...could tell that she wasn't that happy though, but hey, she ask us to be honest ya..we are following the instructions! plus, we are sec 4s le...time to start to slack le and let the sec3s take over..my parents are totally gonna kill me if i go for guides so often again. they killed me for that sat's ushering..now i guess i cant make it for monk's hill campfire. boo...
my dad even commented, the day i dun care bout guides will be the day the skies will fall...
hey...i am not so INTO guides ya... but like wat my dad said, no matter how many unhappy times i had in guides, it had taught me so much things in the 3 plus years i was in it...and thru it all, i have changed much and become stronger? nah...just changed can le.. wise old dad. :)

went to eat mac with char after sch, we were both starving!! talk as usual, we always seem to have lots to say...haha. hor char? *winks* wonder why ahh... :))
jessie smsed asking me to meet her and go home with her...so cute la she.
she walk past mac and saw me.. but i haven eat finish yet..hehee.
called her after eating and char went home..her bus came le.
jessie came with edwin and vern. chatted with them bout jc life...so interesting! hahaa
bus came and left with jess and vern. ed was waiting for wan ting...
ya...so both of them were trying to sell their sajc fun fair tickets to me...ahhaha.
i shall see first la...if i can make it! but guess i will be buying fr jess...sorry vern! but she asked so loonngg ago la. guess the funfair would be interesting...

so now home and shld be doing physics summary!! gosh..its so overdue...:(
2 tests tml..so i better run!

wow...i have been blogging.. :) haha

2005-01-30T20:42:00.000+08:00

ok....alright...
before dear charmaine starts to nag at me again for not updating... i better be good and write her a post for her to see, let her noe that my blog is still functional.. :))
so..here goes...

ok..i injured my beautiful middle finger...and all of the sudden i am SO into poitning it ya...haha. hey..its not a choice at times ya..it cant be bended...
1st few days were terrible..dear old doc wrap it up so well that it was practically sticking out! and den she dump me a bag of painkillers and told me to go home..wow...for waiting to see her for 2 hrs...i get this..i love herr to bits..i mean BITS.
now its in a beautiful plastic cast that is not so outstanding...thks to a nice handsome male doctor that i was referred to...thank goodness!:)

ok..so guides had outdoor cooking which was quite ok...i love tama! shhh..bet lynn loves it too! haha.
and dried leaves...they keep the fire burning!! char must have love it to the max man...she put so many!!! oops..did i just announce it? hehe.den stayed back till 7.30pm to practise for drill test with char, jo, jiayu and lijin.

so sat came and its drill test! overslept and woke up at 7.10am. had to be in sch by 7.30 and was late! lucky alsa was busy scolding a group of guides that were late and did not see me running in from the back..phew! realise that our squad was going to be spilt up..sad.
me, lijin,mich and jo were in the same group with tkgs( tanjong katong girls sch).waa...there commanding is so...fast? to be honest it sucks to me. they are like singing songs...lalala. lucky for them we had the kindest funniest instructor of all..yup, quite good looking too..from ncc. and pass all of us.
gosh..i love males..haha..and females..homo me.
den we all went cc to celebrate! before going to the bishan cc to do ushering. borrring! manage to leave early and go shopping at j8! but in the end nv buy anything..and cny is approaching real fast and i haven bought my clothes and shoes! haiz..mumsie is not providing me with any cash leh...mean..! :(
reach home at 8 plus...was too tires to do anything..bathe and read mag...den fell asleep on the bed with my bears all over me. the rest of my pillows were all on the floor..leaving only my blanket and of cos the bears. nice way to slp huh..

so today went church and just came back...and realise that i haven done a single wk this weekend..and now i am stress ip and feeling lousy and wondering wat on earth am i doing on the com and suddenly thing that this blog is so boring that i am gonna slp jus typing it but den its for the sake for those who jus wanna read so go on and read and i shall apologise if it makes u slp. whew! all in one breath! haha..well gonna try amths log...since audrey says its fun and easy. believe her! haha...

love is in the air..everyone's buying valentine's day gift.

2005-01-16T23:21:00.000+08:00

a breeze...
everything happens in a breeze this few days...
it comes and goes...
and it never returns...

hope everyone had fun for cca orientation...
those ppl who felt it was disgusting and dirty...
jus go away...u dun noe how to chill out...
stop complaining...
cos it's just the beginning...
and if ya cant take it...
leave...for i got enough of dead guides that needs reviving...

i am having pms...everyday...
wth is wrong with me...
the stress..the tests..the work..
and the catching up...
i need tuition so badly...
and it cost money....
this totally sucks..

well, went for the tsunami thingy today...
at first was kinda boring..
nothing to pack...instead went out to get donations...
tatheng's hilarious...hahaha...*bows*
guess only minyi and lynn and some other psls will noe wat i am refering to..
hehehhe...
well, really chill out today...
having dinner with min lynn eugene weikang and tatheng and another gurl..
yikes...i forgot ur name.. i'm sorry!!!
hilarious...tats all i can say..
laugh non-stop...
NON-STOP....
hahahahahahaha....
a bunch of crazy people...

nice knowing u guys...u rock!haha..cya ppl..
tml is the day of horror..:(

2005-01-10T17:53:00.000+08:00

love it...

hate it...

too bad..no choice...

you have to learn to accept it....tolerate..

and get a life!

trust god always and his plans for you...
dear god, help me to get over it. and may i have faith and trust in you always.
cos i need to remove the stone in my eye...before i am able to see and help others
to remove the stone in their eye too. strengthen me and hold me steadfast.
thank you, god. amen.

2005-01-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

okok...
i have fallen for no one...
haha...so stop asking!
i said i think only wat...:p
so drop tat subject...
*directed to pngg and char...*hehe

ok..school's reopening in two days...
tat's bad...
bye to berms, shorts, slippers...
coloured hairbands, ankle-socks, tucked-out shirts..
it time for squeaky clean image...
our beautiful kcpss socks...
the sch uniform with shirt tucked in...
anyone looking forward?
me, me and me! like real...

to png: i dun noe wat we ae performing!!!
and orientation is approaching...FAST!
be nice....give me ideas ok?
i promise i wun tell anyone...oops...did u all see this?
pngg is a very nice girl...rite?
so i shall thank u in advance...
u owe me..:)

i wan a new bag...
for school...
my black addidas bag abit too small le...
i wan those big bilabong bags!!!
as big as its size...it sure cost jus as much...:(
its like 90 bucks..!!
fine...i shall look for cheaper ones...

i am feeling sick...

2004-12-31T09:35:00.000+08:00

i'm scared...
school is reopening in three days time...
sec 4 le...
gce o'level chinese is approching...
and my chinese is like shit...
oh ya...not forgetting maths and sci...

school holiday assignment never seems to end...
the huge pile on my table saying " undone!" never seems to be getting lower..
and a maths is literally driving me mad!
jus say i am stupid...

and there is the sec 1 orientation to add on...
like i dun have enough things to do now ya...
haiz...EVE! i need the pamphlets badly...
if not you are going to do them...
the mc script needs to be..
the mcs need to memorise all the songs...
wow...who are the mcs?
pls..not me..
and we need a performance...
cos ms alsa says all the ug groups are doing one...
why must they always give me such lame reasons..?
everyone's doing it so must we....
haiz...
and she thinks it is so darn easy to come out with a performance in like 3 days...
i still need to teach the others ya...
boo...i am having such a great time...

i am in such a damn lousy mood...:(
help!!!

i tink i have fallen...fallen for you...

2004-12-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

been busy..
nv blog for soo long...
i seriously wan change my blogskin!
its so...
dull? boring? plain?...
oo well...

christmas was ok...
received some presents...and 20 bucks...
quite pathetic...
ppl like char and jing got addidas shoes and hp and ipod and stuff...
and me?
nothing much...
drank red wine...i tink everyone did!haha..
uncle ask if i wan try beer or wine...
tried both...
beer is so....bitter!!!
its made of fermented beans ya noe...
wine is made of fermented grapes....
soo...in conclusion..wine taste MUCH better....
but drink alot le will feel warm...
haha...really!
so cold weather drink more...-_-

went to sch today for guides...
do campfire stuff....
with chew yee, joanne and the 4 psls...
they are a fun lot...eugene, tat heng, weikang & xianlong..
laugh non-stop.....
discuss about campfire songs and programme...
this thurs have to teach them songs...
guides have to be mcs...eww...

went for lunch...
walk around j8...
eugene bought umbro sch schools....
he wears size 8!...
tat's four sizes bigger than me...haha
den went to xianlong's hs...
to see his cute puppy!
it's white and furry...
likes to lick ppl..

waited for the rain to stop before going home...
zzzZZZzzz...a great day to slp..

2004-12-21T20:30:00.000+08:00

i am better...almost well? hopefully..
been ordered by eve to go see doctor...
ermm...the clinic quite crowded lah...
so i sort of did not go in?....
sorry eve!
but dun worry...i just need some rest and drink lots of water...
and den..
i will be WELL...:p

ok...there are suddenly so many things to do...
secondary one orientation...:(
and alsa is definitely one person u dun wan to meet...
cos meeting her means WORK and more WORK..
but i did not meet her ya...i was sick..
but den...there is no escaping her claws...haha..meow?!
ok... will be in sch on the 23rd..
anyone joining me?..
it's my mum's b'day...
sorry mum! i will just go to sch for a short while....
i promised?...:!

ok...christmas is coming..
i am sure looking forward to the 25th...
but not the 24th...
well..u see..i got a gathering with my dad's side...
ya...its just my uncle and family...small family..
but i shall be honest..i dun like them..
and i think they dun like me too...haha..
they just like to critisize everything i do..as well as compare..
haiz...so irritating..now u noe why we hardly meet...:x
other than my dad...nobody in my family is interested to go..
my bro manage to escape...he's going carolling with his friends...
good for him...but tat means i will be alone to face them..
eww...and we are meeting for dinner? gosh...no more appettide...
my mum is certainly not looking forward...
she has been agruing with my dad...
now they are all black-faced...
well..eve has invited me to go out with her on tat day...
let's see if i can go...
but wait till the black clouds are gone....dangerous..

i have packed my room...finally!
it's neat ok... but i wonder how long will it last...
so come and see it soon! haha..
now i gonna pack my clothes...
gonna show mummy tat i have so little clothes...
and tat i have outgrown so many...
den i shall have an excuse to buy clothes!!!
definitely looking forward to a shopping spree with mummy..
cos she's the atm...i need her around..haha

char is in bangkok...miss her...
jo...i need to meet with ya soon...
for wat?... guides lor :(
there is so much undone homework...
anyone wanna meet to do hw? or shld i say copy...

listening to nick lachey's " Fall In Love"...
it's so nice and calming..
i am falling asleep...
zzzZZZzzz....

2004-12-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

boo....i am having high fever...:(

2004-12-18T14:44:00.000+08:00

ok...cont..
yup...slept till about 6 plus...
think the joey and davin fell asleep at 4 plus..haha
was awaken by sw's phone!!
my beauty slp...haha...his sis sms him..
so me, eve, sw and ken were all awake...
the other two conked out leh...cant hear anything...
was debating who shld go buy breakfast...
so decided to play a game of blackjack again...
sw lost again..haha...
both of us owe the 'bank' 200 bucks...:x
but in the end...we nv buy...
den sw went wake up jo to play xbox again...
davin still slping...
me eve and ken went back to slp again...haha
den..check out..went for breakfast....
and den all went home...
and sleep!! zzzZZZzzz...

now i seriously need to start packing up my room...it's a mess!

2004-12-17T00:11:00.000+08:00

everyone is changing blogskin...
i feel like changing mine too...
anyone care to help me??
i dunno how leh...-_-

anyway...just came back from chalet...
one day only..so sian..but still fun lah...
i am just so darn deprived of slp...
my eyelids are closing jus as i am typing now...

the first day,
we met up and davin's uncle drove us there...
so kind of his uncle...but the van at the back abit stuffy and hot lah...abit only..
i forgot to bring toothbrush...
eve and char so kind...they help me choose toothbrush leh...
cheapest one...
it is pokemon charmander toothbrush...for kids. cost:$1.50
thks gals...haha. eve went crazy taking photos of the toothbrush...
we checked in and laze around in the chalet...
end up watching scooby doo* (i dun noe how to spell la)
eve is a total tv addict ...hor?
she was GLUED to the tv screen...
she tried taking video clips...
but was quite ruin by all of us as we kept throwing bedsheets and pillows at her..
sharon and chengying arrived...
majority wanted to go bowling..so no choice..
just play lor...
chengying and char so pro de...
dun say davin and joey ah...
i was last all the way...but not bad la..got over 50 pins..
it's a great achievement u noe...:)

den we went cycling...
had a nice time cycling from one end of the park to the other...
the maze very nice rite? :p
but my back hurts now...
stopped for a water break...
and another time to admire scenery..and enjoy the wind...
actually is to get off the bike for a while la...
butt hurts u noe...the seat not comfortable...

after that we went back to chalet to cool down...
before heading off to sakura for dinner...
sharon and cy could not join us..they went home..
char, u owe me ten bucks...:)
the food is quite nice la...
jus tat the meat abit tough...
siwei will definitely agree with me..:p
and ah...next time eat oysters must put ALOT of lemon...
and chilli and mayo...cos very bitter...:x
thank you eve, for telling me all this after i ate the oyster...
now i got phobia of oysters liao...
oh ya...and our so called 'plan' sort of backfire...
haha...everyone end up eating the cake..
not suppose to eat first lor!!! only few would understand...
especially eve..both of us could not stop laughing...
she had to sit the other end of the table so tat she could cont eating...
cos once she look at me...both of us would start laughing nonstop...
joey and davin...hilarious...
one tried to make the plan a success, the other ruin it all...hahahaha
but both failed in the end....haiz...shall not elaborate further...hehe

after tat...the guys went and rent xbox games..nba and the cute cute micromachines..
went back chalet...some played xbox..the rest played cards...
den had the christmas gift exchange...
yup...char gave joey t-shirt, joey gave char cds..*last min wrap one*
den eve got a bear fr ken, and ken..a comic book...
siwei got a wallet...and i received a bear!!..
ok la...the bear is very cute and huggable...was given to me in a shoebox..-_-"
but ah...there is something wrong with the face lor...haha...
it looks like :(...very sad bear...
dun worry char...i wun do anything to the bear...
though i am tempted to re-sew its mouth...
but i am afraid it might become mouthless after tat...
so i will leave it the way it is...haha.
anyway..thks sw!

char had to leave after that..so sad...
we had our baths after tat before playing blackjack...
only joey did not bathe...smelly smelly...haha
the person who first go bankrupt had to go buy cup noodles..
so that was sw and joey...
followed by ken and davin, who had to go take hot water and buy chopsticks for the noodles..
me and eve were saved...hahaha

after tat...very tired le...
me and eve and ken sort of fell asleep...
but davin sw and jo xbox constantly kept us awake...haha...
i cont....tml...haha...very tired..nitez..:))

2004-12-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

ok...ppl have to chase me to update my blog again..

png is one of them...haha<----

anyway...nothing much

i went out with my bro and uncle yesterday...

watched incredibles..again.

but it was nicer..watching the second time..

the first time was rather..ermm...tiring?

was sitting in the front row...

butt off the chair..

heads up..

not a very comfortable position u noe..

so...after that went kai kai..

uncle insisted we each buy a christmas present..

so i bought sims 2 and my bro bought half-life...

butt actually wanted to get converse shoes...

haiz..nvm lah...

have yet to install sims 2...

so dun ask me fun anot..haha

i will give u the review when i play until shuang shuang...

den went home...

nobody..

no dinner..

so me and bro ordered KFC...

and use my dad's money pay...

he allow leh...not bad hor...first time

den tat's all lor...

i no mood to write la...

feeling sleepy...

next time ba ppl...

nitez!

2004-12-02T11:54:00.000+08:00

singpore idol is over...TAUFIK IS THE WINNER!!

yea...haha...

he sang really well...nice voice.

so CONGRATS!

all the finalist sang last night...

it was nice to see them back...

the last song sang by taufik and sly...

" that's what friends are for"

really nice...touching...especially the chorus.

[Keep smiling keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That’s what friends are for
In good times and bad times
I’ll be at your side forever more
That’s what friends are for]

really nice to have friends around huh?

especially when u have family problems...

and there is hardly peace at home except when u r alone.

to YOU: thks for being a great friend!:))

2004-12-01T10:06:00.000+08:00

a. maths a. maths a. maths....
u r really driving me crazy....
hw is due in 3 hrs time....
i am still unable to do a single sum...

chalet.chalet.chalet...
my parents cant seem to adore you...
nagging day in and day out...
they cant seem to shut their mouth...
i really cant take it no more...

calling SOS... but nobody seems to answer to the call...

tired.confused.depressed.irritated.angry.moody.me.

2004-11-29T16:10:00.000+08:00

ok...i have not been blogging again..

pardon me..feeling lazy la

first things first.

there is a girl in my tuition centre!!!

oh man...i am saved!

haha...she is rather friendly..good sign ya..

the past few days all at home lah..

sat went for the guides competition...

man...i learn lots of things:)

singapore sling...one drink u gotta try once u hit 18..

we totally flunk this wee kim wee competition..

its ok...results whether we got into the top 8 still remains unknown..

den met charmaine and joey in the late afternoon for some discussion..

they were late...especially char...hor charmaine?

haha..drank mocha den tok tok...

den char insisted on taking some hilarious neoprints

we all look like idiots...except char la...

she had a happy time designing it..

(wats the santa claus hat doing on my head ah?!?)

den watch the incredibles...

i tink i sprain my neck watching it...

the movie was great ya...but never ever sit the front row.

cos ur butt will never be on the chair..haha

went to eat cafe cartel...char suggested..

her day's expenses was paid for ya...her b'day gift

ya..so i am broke..but i think joey is worst..haha.

sunday...had an agrument with my parents...

they are so overeacting...so darn unreasonable...

and..they have a darn good imagination...

lastly..they dun trust me..or my friends AT ALL!

they live in dino age...and they dun wan to change their mindset to MODERN times..

cos ppl in this generation are always wrong..to them.

wat we agrued about...shan't say it yet...

its just... i am very angry, unhappy and disappointed.

so its better not to say anymore..lest i overeact..

like they are now.

i am a jailbird...they are not letting me out.

haiz...wat to do?

nothing..cos nothing can be done.

God please help me...

to do the right thing...to noe wat is best..

and help them too...

to understand..to be resonable and to have faith in me..

i got to do my tuition work le..there are tons of it.

wish me luck..

2004-11-23T19:45:00.000+08:00

its posted!!...

man...u all are lucky...cos if not i will blog no more!;p

2004-11-23T18:54:00.000+08:00

ok... this is the second time i am writing the same blog!!!

if this is not posted..tat's it! i'm not blogging anymore!! haha..

went for com class today...

will be going back again tml...

one word: BORRING!!

haha...actually me and char finish our web le...

just tat it is too plain and sloppy tat it was REJECTED!

haha..actually i agree..but me and char are quite com dead..

to produce such work is already quite a masterpiece...haha

nvm..we shall produce a better masterpiece tml...hehe:)

went for lunch..suppose to be with char, celin and chengying..

in the end left me and char only..

cos celine had to wait for 1/2 an hour for alsagoff...

den chengying went home...

me and char had a great lunch..haha

takopachi!

were thirsty so went to NTUC to buy drinks...

we saw packets for making hot chocolates..

guess wat?

we threw our drinks onto the nearby shelf...

den went to coffee bean to have hot chocolate!

hilarious!

sat for about 1/2 an hour and tok and tok...

man..we are so free ah..haha

char and mel...pls stop ur craze about cafe cartel...

whenever we ask where to eat for lunch...

"CAFE CARTEL"

haha..but den all are broke...so just dream about it..

jus went and sign up for a maths tuition...

i am joining halfway...and there's nobody there tat i noe...:(

haiz...will be so lost tml...

anyway..off to do some work...

before mum starts ' singing songs' again...

2004-11-22T13:33:00.000+08:00

haha...after char and eve saw my blog on campfire...

they must have tot i was MAD!

ya...abit..but it helped to change abit of their perspective on the campfire.

it was good...trust me.

now there is just one more thing i cant wait for it to end.

tat is the Tan Wee Kiat Challenge shield...watever it is.

and i did not received miss teo's notes...

so dun blame me if i go there UNPREPARED and make a fool of myself...haha

today's com class was hilarious...

our website is damn plain..pls dun ever see it.hehe

and char has gone mad...she puts jerry ong's name there but he is the only one without pics cos she just doesnt like him..nice one charmaine!

well...hopefully we can finish our pathetic webby soon...if nt gt to keep coming back for the borring com class...

well.. my parents are going to sign me up for e maths and a maths class this holidays..

its twice weekly for EACH subject...

add on together with my physics tutition every sat..

and TADA...my holidays are gone...

i will be going for tuition five days a week...how nice

well...i shld have expected a present fr my parents for scoring so darn high for my finals...

nvm...i will just SMILE it away...:)

was reading ppl's blogs on johor camp and OBS...

man...i was missing all that fun...

STOP MAKING ME JEALOUS PPL!haha...

its ok...i will just SMILE it away...:)

madness...

oh amn..i need to go!! dad is home!! byee...

2004-11-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

ok i have not been blogging...now i will.

campfire is over! finally!

To some; campfire was a failure, a total failure.

To me; campfire WAS a failure, BUT it was a success too!

The campfire taught me many lessons and help me see some changes as well.

let me update you.

Morning: collected the new guide shirts..they look nice!

taught the guides the campfire songs.

As usual, they did not sing.

Mel got quite angry...ask everyone to get into 2 straight lines and we shall do some running to wake them up.

So i lead them in 5 runs around the parade square.

they sang... not louder than the four of us ( eve, mel, alicia, me)

but there was a noticable improvement.

Brief them on the day's happenings and den work began!

Took with me the first shift to bring down all the campfire stuff from the guides room.

den they break for lunch!

Afternoon: we had bubble tea and chicken rice for lunch! yummy! thks to eve's mum who bought us lunch.

finish the deco , rearrange the canteen.

Now, we have to wait for miss alsagoff to come back before we can start preparing the campfire.

campfire was set up in a jiffy when SHE came.

the banner was put up after much trouble.

thks to ian and shawn! thks guys!:)

night: mel and i were mcs...

schools pulled out of performances...

darn, it was time to impromptu all the way.

well, wat can i say,

alsa was not happy, everyone was panicky.

but you know wat?

we did it... had them running around, singing, playing all the way till 9.30pm.

our dance came in third!

but you know wat, that was not the best part...

to me, the best part was seeing the kcp guides being so enthu.

i have never seen them singing so loudly before..

they cheered, scream , sang.

they really rock my world and no matter how sad, tired was i,

i could not help but smile at them.

thank you, for proving that you all were really preserving your energy for the night...

so...all who are weary and tired and sad and depressed...

SMILE cos you noe wat?

the amount of time, effort we all put in into the campfire are not wasted.

And we did a GREAT job!:)

believe me...we did it! ( for first timers)hehe

hey..the teachers agreed too...they did not scold us and though alsa was not really happy,

she was still able to see the amount of effort that went into one night of campfire.

remember...we did it all by ouselves...be proud ppl!

and she thank us at the end of it!

KCP guides are back and they are not leaving for quite some time.

*never give up*

ABSOLUTELY EVERYBODY!:)

2004-11-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

yea! its working! i can blog again..encountered some problems creating a new post! and charmaine has been chasing me for an update! haha...so here goes..

tuesday: nothing much happened,

or should i say ' i can't remember!' sorry lah...

wednesday: ok i remembered! was very bored in the morning..

dad was on leave at home:x no lazing around!

called eve to go swimming since the weather look damn good!

agreed to meet at 2pm...she was late for 1/2 hr..but tats ok..i am forgiving:) hehe

you noe wat? i was cheated!

haha..by the weather i mean! wat were you thinking? nah..i dun wan to noe

by 2 plus..the sky was getting darker, no longer tat sunny.

i was praying and praying, pls dun let it rain!

but i guess God had other plans..

it rained...with thunder and lightning.

but tats ok..you noe why rite? ya...cos i am forgiving..haha..wat nonsense.

anyway, we still made our way to the pool and tot perhaps we could jus go in and wait for the rain to stop den swim.

guess wat?

they off the ticketing machine.. which only means one thing..

WE CAN'T GET IN!

anyway while waiting at the entrance like some jailbirds,

we saw fellow kcpians who were there earlier swimming( smart hor)

and they were...tada! hannah and krystal!

they finish swimming 19 laps le...we not so bad la..

swam 19 laps less than them:p

then! the rain stopped.. no more thunder and lightning!

waa..so interesting hor!

the sun came out too! this is not melodrama hor!

so we swam...and swam.

den we went home.

-end of story-

so, the moral of the story is...

dun go swimming in the mid afternoon!

jus kidding!

God answers prays...in many ways!:)

thursday: we went swimming again! cos yesterday didn't swim much..

this time, we went in the morning..smarter le.

it was really hot!!

i got even blacker...and eve is still as fair as ever. thks ah

anyway, swam fast cos still got to go school for guides!

the rest of the day very borring la..

dun wan to bore u all so i shan't write anymore.

haha..

friday: at home for the whole day..super borring!

today: went to celebrate dad's b'day in advance! actual date is 8th nov.

ate at jack's place. yummy!

had tuition.

tat's all!

night ppl...update is completed!

2004-11-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

went to school today to help out in the dance and campfire wood soaking...chew yee ended up doing the campfire mainly alone, did not really accomplished much but still ok la. went to cafe cartel for lunch with the usual gang...hang out for a while till the rain stops and ended up taking neo-prints!
i received constant nagging since my parents reached home..everything i do is pin-pointed..even checking email for 5 mins is wrong! i am wasting time they say..but den doing household chores the whole day is NOT wasting time..i really dun get it! REALLY! its getting to be a real drag to go home this few days...i wish they were a little more encouraging and supportive! just a little! is it too much to ask for? haiz..cant write anymore...cos i am WASTING time! so gtg...night ppl!

its done!

2004-10-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

i have finally got my blog done! All thanks to harry! thanks alot harry! haha...
well, heritage is over..FINALLY! thks to shiqi who did the final touches...but there is still campfire and one more competition to go. this holiday will be a busy time for me to catch up on my work and have proper time management like my dad always tell me...i been rather disorganize and blurr..like just wake up like tat. hopefully i can catch up on my 'a' maths and physics which i totallly flunk terribly! ppl out there..lets have a study grp during the holidays k? cos i dun really have tuition now and no one in my family is able to help me...lookin out for a tuition centre, any recomendations? haha.. anyway, tat's all i have to write now..a little tired..and mum wants me to bake cakes tml morning for her friends!! maria on call!! haha..so seacrest out! opps..shld be esther out! haha..

i can start blogging1

2004-10-29T22:50:00.000+08:00

ok..
i now can blog too! but i really dun know how to use the thing...this is just testing testing only!